Friday, March 12, 2010

Phew.

End of the week. Not like it's been a super crazy week, but it's the first week that I haven't had any help in the mornings, and we managed pretty well. Maggie is much more reasonable in the mornings now (no totally inconsolable crying) and Hulk likes to do his thing (which involves going down the stairs all by himself... which is super cute). We went to the baby friendly movie and saw Alice in Wonderland with a friend, went to mom's group, visited my co-workers at my office with Maggie, did some shopping, got my oil changed and even assembled our meals at Dream Dinners. Getting back into the swing of things.

Just like I mentioned that Maggie seems to have grown up so much in the past few weeks - so has Hulk. He now says YES! to everything (which is a hell of a lot better than no). He also says please (pez! while hitting his stomach - his version of the sign for please), dog!, and the old favorites WOW and Uh oh....

Now that the weather is getting nicer, we are spending a lot of time outside. The time is approaching to plant Nora's tree and put her ashes under it. That is going to involve some heavy equipment - so we are also planning on where to put the kids new playset - which is an awesome hand-me-down from a friend. I'm noticing that we are kind of obsessing on the playset, and realized that we are focusing on that and not the fact that the reason we are getting landscapers in the first place is to put in Nora's tree. I guess whatever it takes to get us through, right?

Life is slowly getting back to normal - and I've noticed that now that Nora isn't on my mind 24X7, when I do get pulled back to think of her, it hits me even harder. Which sucks. I thought being further away from the event would cushion things, but it doesn't. I had yet another fight with my insurance company this week (actually TWO - on TWO different issues, fuckers), and it all circles me back to the original issue when Nora first died and they couldn't figured out how to deal with two children born on the same day, one alive and one not. Remember all of Maggie's claims were getting rejected because they thought her insurance was canceled? AUGH. So although I was justified to be angry in the first place (somehow my claim got lost in the mail. Seriously, what are the odds that MY claim gets lost by the USPS. Have you ever gotten mail LOST!?! And the fact that it's MY mail with this god damn insurance company!?!?!? I was LIVID) the history cycles me right back to my loss. It sucks. The rational part of me knows that will happen, but living it sucks.

But - thinking forward to a fun weekend. Tomorrow I've got a day with Hulk's godmother - we are going to take him to the Discovery Museum and then to a play date with neighbors, and then just hang out. There is a chance that Aaron and I may take advantage of her good nature and go out for a little date night too. We will see.

6 comments:

HereWeGoAJen said...

Yeah, the post office lost a huge stack of my outgoing mail once and I almost got evicted (rent check went missing, but I actually did send it so I didn't know they didn't get it...) But only that once. And I know the post office did something to it because one of the checks in the stack of mail ended up at the lost mail office and was mailed back to me. The rest disappeared forever.

I can't believe Hulk is talking so much!

Carrie27 said...

It's hard sometimes to see how much the oldest is changing when you have a new baby changing almost by the second.

What a mess with the mail, I'm so very sorry you have to deal with all of that.

I can't wait for the weather to get nice and stay nice - the kids have gone out twice and have gone nuts running.

Heather said...

That dinner place sounds amazing. I looked and the closest is over 260 miles from me :(

What kind of tree are you planting?

I hate insurance companies as a general rule but I can't imagine what they have put you through. I'm sorry.

MyLifeMyWorld & Growing Families said...

Insurance companies suck...I usually hand deliver my stuff if needs be to a local office or ship it direct.

I'm sorry their still dicking you around.

I'm interested as to what kind of tree your planting too...will you get a big one? Must be to need heavy equipement??

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Michele said...

Thinking of you... I still get hit sometimes by the gravity of our children being gone and it sucks the breath out of me.