My nurse finally called back towards the end of the day yesterday - and she reminded me that I should have expected spotting after the u/s. I had kind of thought that was what was going on - but at the same time I was freaking out. I felt better after talking to her, but also much better now that it's stopped!
I hate that my first thought is that something is going wrong. In general, I'm a very happy, upbeat person. But with all the IF crap - I've become very protective of my sanity. I'm really not ready to be 100% excited about being pregnant... and I think I'm going to stay that way until I see the little heart beating away. And having been sick for the past week (I still don't have my voice back!) isn't really helping. I can't tell if different things that I am feeling are because I'm pregnant, or because I'm sick. Augh! Just get better already!
Today is my last day at work, and then I'm off for a week's vacation. I'm going to Orcas Island, and staying at the Rosario Resort. It is a beautiful place, and as an added benefit - pretty much totally off the grid. Barely any cell phone reception at all. I won't be bringing a laptop. Just spending the week with some women who also like to knit - and taking a few knitting classes. We are also going on a whale watch, and I'm sure I'll find some time to sneak in a spa treatment or two. Aaron is staying home - and that is the one part that sucks. I really like to be close to him, and now more than normal. He is the calming force in my life! But I'll be surrounded by some good friends - so I'm sure I'll be fine.
But - you all won't hear from me for a while! I should be back on line next Sunday, and then I'm going to start obsessing on my next u/s which is Tuesday, the 21st!