Friday, April 11, 2008

Better

My nurse finally called back towards the end of the day yesterday - and she reminded me that I should have expected spotting after the u/s. I had kind of thought that was what was going on - but at the same time I was freaking out. I felt better after talking to her, but also much better now that it's stopped!

I hate that my first thought is that something is going wrong. In general, I'm a very happy, upbeat person. But with all the IF crap - I've become very protective of my sanity. I'm really not ready to be 100% excited about being pregnant... and I think I'm going to stay that way until I see the little heart beating away. And having been sick for the past week (I still don't have my voice back!) isn't really helping. I can't tell if different things that I am feeling are because I'm pregnant, or because I'm sick. Augh! Just get better already!

Today is my last day at work, and then I'm off for a week's vacation. I'm going to Orcas Island, and staying at the Rosario Resort. It is a beautiful place, and as an added benefit - pretty much totally off the grid. Barely any cell phone reception at all. I won't be bringing a laptop. Just spending the week with some women who also like to knit - and taking a few knitting classes. We are also going on a whale watch, and I'm sure I'll find some time to sneak in a spa treatment or two. Aaron is staying home - and that is the one part that sucks. I really like to be close to him, and now more than normal. He is the calming force in my life! But I'll be surrounded by some good friends - so I'm sure I'll be fine.

But - you all won't hear from me for a while! I should be back on line next Sunday, and then I'm going to start obsessing on my next u/s which is Tuesday, the 21st!

16 comments:

Jen said...

Enjoy your time on Orcas. It is incredibly beautiful up there!!!

sarah said...

Whew. What a relief. It is so hard to be dogged by dread and fear at every turn. One of my friends said that IF robbed her of her innocence. I feel like that sometimes. My cousin is a year younger than me and had an easy time getting (and staying) pregnant. She had a home birth, and I really wish that I could be optimistic enough to do that as well, but when (and if) I get pregnant I want to be somewhere where they can cut me open if necsseary. I think if I'd gotten pregnant like she did, hadn't been robbed of my innocence, then it wouldn't seem like a risk. So have a wonderful time in the Orcas, relaxing has to be good for the baby, right?

Fertilized said...

Have a great trip

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Jennifer said...

Have fun at Rosario - it's a gorgeous place. They are a former client of mine from a few years ago...I never made it up there, but my boss did and he said he had to fly a sea plane into the island...cool.

Jen said...

Enjoy the vacation!

Geohde said...

SOmetimes it's nice to have what you already think is true to be confirmed by somebody else- so glad the spotting has stopped.

Have a wonderful vaycay, and good luck at that u/s,

J

K @ ourboxofrain said...

I'm glad the spotting has stopped and the worry has abated. Have a wonderful trip!

Meghan said...

So glad the spotting stopped and you're feeling a little better.

Have a fantastic time on your vacation....so jealous!

Manise said...

Have a wonderfully relaxing time!

Ahuva Batya said...

I"m sorry for your scare, but so glad the spotting has stopped. Have a great trip!

La La said...

Have a great trip!!

I'm glad the spotting stopped. I've been spotting off and on as well, and spotted after my U/S.

Baby Step said...

My trip to Orcas several years ago was one of my BEST trips ever. I am sure you are enjoying yourself!!

tobacco brunette said...

Glad everything is okay. Enjoy your getaway!

Kenya said...

sounds like so much fun, enjoy and i'm glad that everything is fine.

sukeyknits said...

Hope things go smoothly and have a wonderful time at sock camp!! Can't wait to see the new digs.