I can't decide what to say about this year. Even if I only base it on this last month. Was it a shitty year? No. Was it the best year of my life... no. But it was amazing. Maybe that is the way to describe it - amazing. I had a full year with Hulk, how continues to astonish me daily. Like yesterday? The baby who barely eats any adult food? Turns out he loves lasagna. That cracked me up.
I was pregnant with twins for a huge portion of the year - which was amazing that it even happened to begin with, and then Aaron and I spent the year preparing for what life would be like with three children under the age of one. I was sick of being pregnant (would I have believed I would even write that 3 years ago?), scared for life with 3 babies, excited to meet them... overjoyed I didn't have to do IVF again.
Work was decent... no big crisis, but I found after coming back from maternity leave that I was really needed, and I did actually love my job - which was a decent revelation to make.
Then the girls were born! To finally meet them and hold was wonderful. To spend 5 days with them in the hospital was perfect. Taking them home was a bit stressful, but we were dealing. And then all hell broke loose less than 48 hours later. And then this month has been a really hard mix of joy with Hulk and Maggie, and shock and sadness over the loss of Nora.
Would I want this year to not have happened? No. Would I have changed a few things - hell yes! But I certainly don't wish this year away - and I can't even say that I wish 2010 is better - because if you try to look at the whole year - there is a lot of wonderful things that happened. That won't ever happen again. And the horrible things, we can pray they don't happen again - but they are part of life.
But I will say that I hope 2010 is a bit less eventful. How is that?
Happy New Year. We will be spending it eating food dropped off by caring friends and waking up every 3 hours with a super fussy baby that has us both wrapped around her little finger.