Monday, March 31, 2008

Day 17.

Well. I made it. I'm on day 17 of the 18 day wait. There has been no spotting (last cycle I had very heavy spotting starting on day 16.). My nipples continue to be dark. I feel stretching in my lower abdomen. I was ridiculously tired yesterday. I've been visualizing what the nurse will say what she calls. I have yet to be tempted by the pee sticks.

Shit shit shit shit shit. I'm pretty god damn nervous about tomorrow. I'm feeling really positive. I'm pretty nervous that if things don't happen as expected, I'm going to be totally crushed. But, I think I have little Rational Cece in the back of my mind reminding me that it won't be the end of the world if this cycle didn't work out.

This weekend was perfect. We played cards, we knit, we did a bunch of sewing. Everyone loved the cabin, we laughed a lot and all the food that prepared was a hit! On the way home, Aaron and I spent some time with his father - and we watched 8 Below (that movie about the dogs who survive months in Antarctica all by themselves?). I cried the whole way though. I'm such a sucker for dog movies like that.

Tomorrow morning I go in for my blood work, and I think I should hear by early afternoon. I have completed knitting my lucky socks, I have the lucky penny I found the day of my embryo transfer in my shoe, and I will have little Z with me. Let's pray for a good April Fool's day, shall we?

22 comments:

Brandy said...

I'll be thinking about you and praying for the very best results possible!!

Frieda said...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow. I love your positive attitude and just feel all will be right tomorrow. I can't wait to see you at camp. Sending good karma your way.

Morrisa said...

I'm praying!

tobacco brunette said...

Glad your weekend distractions went well. Good luck tomorrow - I'll be thinking of you and checking here relentlessly.

Jennifer said...

Good luck tomorrow - high hopes!!!

Valerie said...

I am a new reader, I will be thinking of you tomorrow.

Meghan said...

Sorry I haven't commented in forever.

But good for you for not being tempted by the evil pee sticks. I'm very impressed.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, good luck!

Swim said...

good luck tomorrow. I am REALLY impressed at your ability to not POAS.

best of luck!

La La said...

Yay for April Fool's Day, I'll be thinking about you!!

mamacate said...

I'll be thinking about you and sending strength vibes for the wait until tomorrow. That last 24 hours is the longest!

Fingers crossed for a good outcome, but if not, you know we'll be here. That weekend sounds like the perfect pre-beta event!

JJ said...

Hope its a great April Fools. No foolin=)

Angi said...

Just wanted to wish you luck tomorrow!!

amysue said...

Thinking, hoping and praying that this is the cycle for you and Aaron!

soapchick said...

Sending you lots of positive thoughts! Good luck

Geohde said...

Cece, I'm crossing all my crossables for you.

I'll be a-haunting your blog....

J

admin said...

Good luck tomorrow!

Manise said...

I second Cate's sentiments! Glad you had an awesome weekend!

Kenya said...

SO ANXIOUS!!

KE II said...

Wow... i'm praying for you Cece

Kim said...

Sending you positive thoughts and prayers for tomorrow!

lyra's mom said...

We're hoping for a great day for you tomorrow. I told Brad to cross his fingers. We are rooting for you!

Erin said...

I'm praying, I can't wait to hear.