Monday, December 6, 2010

Burned.

Wow. I'm more than a little burned out today! It's been two weeks of gogogogogogogo! And now I need to stop!

I had kind of told myself that this weekend would be no big deal. The anniversary of Nora's death wouldn't mean anymore than every other day, when I also miss her. A lot. But I was totally wrong. I couldn't sleep Friday night at all. Saturday, we went to see Santa at Nini Bambini (a bit of a failure - can't wait to see those pictures! Then - we went to see a cousin perform in a figure skating competition. For whatever reason, from then on, I was on the edge of tears all day. But we made it through just fine.

Sunday, we woke up (well, or exited the bed, in my case) to Cameron opening his presents - a bike, a stuffed lion, and TWO new trucks! He was so excited. But Aaron and I were already burned out - the cakes needed to be decorated still, and I needed to get balloons. And the kitchen was a mess. My mom arrived with her present (a helmet for the bike, which he hated of course). So I left and apparently mom was all over Aaron, driving him NUTS, and trying to get Cam to put the helmut on. Of course, Aaron was super crabby due to lack of sleep and work issues, and that fun continued all day.

The party itself was an awesome blast. Awesome. If anyone is in the area, I would totally recommend the Acton Discovery Museum for a party. They are super helpful, have a GREAT room you can use, and it wasn't crazy expensive. What a treat to not have to worry about hoards of people in your house like we did for Maggie's party.

But then, we got home, and that awesome advent calender. With the mittens? That I knit by hand? That took me HOURS of free time I don't really have? We left the door open to the dining room, the dogs got in there, destroyed all the mittens and ate the chocolate. I saw it and I swore. And I was crying and Aaron was telling me 'that's what I get for leaving the door open' and my mother is telling me not to swear in front of the children and 'that's what dogs do when they want to get back at you'. I was LIVID. Yes, yes. I know that it's not the dogs fault, I should have made sure the door was closed... but I was just SO happy about those mittens and how cute it looked and how much fun Cam was having with it, and to see it destroyed all across the living room! It's not like they just shook out the chocolate! They destroyed each and every mitten too! Even the time I took to carefully stuff all the mittens with one krackle bar each (and other stuff for the rest of us) because those are Cam's favorites.... I was crushed. The good news is that I knit extra, because for a while I thought I would make a mitten for each kid, so the reknitting won't be all that bad. Like 8 hours instead of 24. But seriously.

Now I need to get to work and work on this stupid spreadsheet that should take weeks but my boss told me about Weds night, and it was due on Friday. Sigh. If I ever needed a mental health day, today is the day. But work beckons.

10 comments:

BigP's Heather said...

I crochet. Barely. And I would have cried and thrown a complete tantrum over those adorable mittens. I'm so sorry. That was the last thing you needed.

Heather said...

Oh no! I gasped when I read about the mittens. Gasped loud enough that my coworkers asked what was wrong. I would have had a tantrum as well. And yeah, there would have been swearing too.

I hope you get some sleep tonight. It's been quite a week.

Shari said...

*oh man! I am crying right along side of you with the mittens... oh dear! - I have no words.. just a big cyber hug!

Lisa said...

Oh man, that is so disappointing, re: mittens. I knit and crochet and have been working on holiday projects for weeks, I can't imagine if they were destroyed. I'm so glad that you can re-create it (relatively) easily! Hope things get easier.

Sara said...

Oh maaaan. For what it's worth, I have had huge emotional reactions when a dog destroys hand-knits - all tied up in other relationships and emotions too - but seriously. Huge. It's so not helpful to have someone toss back self-blame (If you hand't left the door open...) but really - would you seriously have purposely left the door open?

Those mittens are seriously cute and if you wanted to open up the internet floodgates I bet if you shared the pattern/yarn details you get spread the re-knitting ;) I'd knit you one or a few.

Close birthdays like that are also difficult - my kids are 9 days apart and it stresses me out every year. Combined with the PTSD stuff with loss of Nora? It's just a lot.

Just me said...

OH NO! Naughty boxers!!!!!!!!!!! my Peanut is a destroyer too. When she does stuff like that, I don't know whether I'm more mad at her or myself for not forseeing the situation!

HereWeGoAJen said...

All those mittens? I cannot believe it. They were SO beautiful! (And it is a little bit of the dogs' fault. Stupid dogs.)

I was thinking about your Nora this weekend.

Kahla said...

I hate those kinds of days, sending hugs from Texas. I would have sworn too.

Annalien said...

I would have been livid too about the mittens, especially after an emotional and exhausting weekend like you have had! Here's to hoping that things calm down soon.

Carrie27 said...

Bad doggies! We all need to have an invisible amount of time in a day, but still get enough sleep to function.