Tuesday, May 29, 2007

F#@K (update from appt with RE)

Well, went the the RE today. And cried. I always cry. I try so hard not to, but I always do. Sigh. Before I got there, I was pretty proud of myself - I'm at 4 pounds to go, and from what I remember when we met last, I needed to be to that goal weight by the end of June. And he said that my approval for the IVF at his clinic didn't go through because of my weight. That I needed to lose those 4 pounds... and I was like I KNOW! But I thought I had another month?!?!?!

And then the crying started. The good news is that he is going to call the insurance coordinator and explain everything today, and he is sure he can get them to approve us for a cycle starting end of June. But I was still tearing up at this point.

There was a lot of good news - my blood work came back, and my LH level was 3.2 - he said I may be 31 years old, but my ovaries are 24! And that I'll go through menopause in my late 50's at the earliest. And everything else on my blood work (and Aaron's) looked perfect. The current plan is this:

Continue to lose weight (and not cry about it so much)
CD 1 (should be June 3rd) - call and make an appointment for CD 12 to get some final exams done and meet with the nurse
CD21 (around June 25th) - start Lupron for ~ 10 days
After period starts, start the the IVF shots, for a ER date of around July 11th.

It's good to know the plan - and the further away I get from the appointment, the better I realize that the appointment really was. Aaron asked me if I wanted to change docs - because he really isn't the most sensitive when it comes to talking to me about my weight... but I trust him. And I really don't want to go through switching docs at this point.

Of course, maybe I'm already pregnant, and I just don't know! Wishful thinking - but I'm finding myself poking at my boobs - 'are they sore'? If I keep on poking, they damn well should be! AF is expected this weekend.. so not to much longer to wonder.


Chris said...

I'm sorry you had such an upsetting appointment. It is so frustrating to think you know how something is going to proceed, and doing all you can to make it happen, and then to feel it all slip away. You have much to be proud of, you have made such great progress already with your weight and exercise! And you are right, there was much good news during your appointment. Good luck!

Mary Ellen and Steve said...

I am sorry that your appointment was upsetting. It sounds like your doctor needs a lesson in sensitivity. Good luck with your upcoming cycle. Hugs.

Samantha said...

That's rough. You doctor knows you are working on losing weight, and you've made great progress so far! I'm glad you were able to get that straightened out and glad there was some other good news. Keep up the exercise!

Laura, the (reluctant) baroness said...

Congrats on getting the plan in place!

You should be proud of yourself. The way you've been going, I'm sure you can lose those extra 4 lbs, no problem! Then you can go in to the RE with a big grin and no tears. (I'm the same way; I walk in my RE's door and the tears start welling up.)

karen said...

I'm sorry; your doctor sounds like he's kind of an ass. Sometimes I think that they look for that on med school apps...

But, man, you're doing an impressive job of getting in shape and losing weight. And your new garden looks terrific!