Friday, February 8, 2008

Meh.

So. I'm on day 4 of Lupron... and I'm noticing a marked difference in the way I'm dealing with this cycle than my first IVF cycle. I feel like last time I was already all obsessed with the shots and figuring out when my retrieval would be... not this time. I'm not freaked out.

I wonder if it has to do with the pledge I made to Aaron to not go on pregnancy.org. While all the woman there are really great, they kind of obsess about everything, and therefore have ME obsessing about everything. I am glad that I went there as a resource early on, but now, I really don't need the added stress. Dare I say it? Aaron was right.

Also - since last cycle was my very first cycle, I was pretty scared about everything. How I would react to the shots, the whole ER process, and what to expect.... this time? I know it really isn't all that bad (at least for me). I didn't have a horrible reaction to the drugs, the people in the IVF suite were so nice, and the procedures were really not that big a deal.

This time, I know what I need to ask for support. In a twist of good timing for us (but sad for him) Aaron's best friend broke up with his girlfriend, so will be staying with us for a while. So - we'll have him as a built in support system for little things like cooking food and taking care of the dogs on procedure days. Everyone at work is really supportive. And, this time I know what I need to ask for from my friends and family (mostly to keep me distracted!!!!).

Oh. And this time? We aren't telling my MIL, nor are we visiting her or anything. I think that Thanksgiving visit was about the worst idea I'd ever had.

I will say that I'm also not super excited, but I'm guessing that is because I'm trying to protect myself. I'm not really sure how I'm going to react to any outcome at this point. Nothing to do but wait and see.

9 comments:

Chris said...

They say it's best to keep your expectations low but your hope high. I think the people that say that are high. I like your plan of just going with the flow. But I'm holding out plenty of hope for you.

Bside- Kenya said...

You're on the right track by just taking it easy and not stressing over it. My DH banned me from my baby websites too and it helped. And yes a prescription of no MIL is needed!!!

tobacco brunette said...

Oh we are in the EXACT same place, except first time around I was obsessed with IVFConnections, not pregnancy dot org. And I too have made a pledge to stay away from it this time around.

My transfer is on Monday and I've only thought about it about six times today, instead of constantly, which was the case last time.

Geohde said...

Wait and see is a pretty good approach, I reckon,

Good luck Mz Cece

xx

J

Baby Step said...

I am on day 2 of lupron for IVF#2 (microdose this time) - ZERO side effects!

I feel exactly the same way. I am not scared but not excited. I am kind of bored with it, quite frankly. Here we go again. My husband isn't going to be around for the week of my ER/ET and I actually am not even going to stress about that either!

I am still going to my Loungeplace.com board and also I have a small private board (two of the ladies just had their babies, one more is due in two weeks), but I find them super supportive, so I am going to stick around.

Can't wait to do this in parallel with you!

amysue said...

Your emotions and need to obsess over different aspects of this will ebb and flow and whichever way you do it is what's right for you at the time. I hope this cycle is one of low drama and much success.

Schatzi said...

Glad to hear this cycle seems to be a bit easier for you.

Wishing you the best of luck!

dorothy said...

All the best! Cautious optimism, right???

-Dot

Annie said...

Knowing what is coming makes it a little bit easier doesn't it? I hope that it continues to go well and you can just keep going with the flow.

Having no MIL involved sounds like a great idea too. Not having my MIL this time around has made it a LOT less stressful.

Good luck.