Thursday, July 26, 2007

Like Sand through the hourglass...

So are the days of my life.

CD1.

Again.

For some reason, I'm not even a little bit upset with it. I did have a mini-ride on the 'hope train' this month... but last night I had my neighbors over for a little bit of knitting, and one brought her 5 month old son. I was holding him and playing with him... and then Aaron came home and was playing with him too - and no sadness. Just fun at playing with a little baby.

I wonder if I'm just at the point where I've moved on in my head to IVF? Or paying more attention to thinking about what I want to talk to Potential New Doc about on August 7th? It really feels like the months are just flying by... like the summer had just started, and now we are in August. The quicker the summer goes, the faster I get to October, when my insurance company will definitely approve our IVF. And, since I haven't been going to Dr N lately, I'm kind of forgetting my frustrations with him.

Dare I say, I'm learning patience? That can't be it. No freaking way.

6 comments:

Imogen and David said...

Grr, CD1 always sucks. Good luck for your Drs. appointment.

serenity said...

There was a point in our TTC journey where J and I actually realized that this is a marathon... and we're in it for the long haul.

It was freeing, actually - because the cycles coming and going seemed to be less INTENSE, if you know what I mean.

I am happy that you were able to spend time with a baby yesterday with no sadness. Serious kudos hon.

chicklet said...

This cracked me up - cuz it's EXACTLY how I was feeling last month when the doc appt was coming up. When AF came, it was like, oh well, on we go, only a few more weeks until I get new options. And like Serenity said, it was really quite freeing. Glad you're in a good place today.

Mary Ellen and Steve said...

Cycle day one sucks, but it's great that you are in a good place right now.

Chris said...

Congrats on your new found patience. Isn't it a wonderful feeling? I hope you are able to keep it around for a while.

Geohde said...

Sorry about CD 1. That sucks.:(

I hear you in the mental move on to IVF, but at the same time, do you think for a minute I've stopped using my stash of OPKs? Nah!