I have this very cool song running through my head 'I got the will to drive myself sleepless, sleepless' (by Soul Coughing).
Not much sleep occurred last night. I've figured out that my mother's misery it rooted in my brother's financial issues - or more specifically - how his money issues effect her. Turns out, she loaned him a big chunk of change, and since he's going through all this bankruptcy stuff, he isn't paying her back (but he can still buy a car and take trips to Key West). And now she needs to work 2 more years before she retires because of it. I'm pissed. And she doesn't want me to talk to him about it (and she isn't talking about it either). That she is being taken advantage of really is weighing on me.
In addition, my father and step mother are visiting this weekend. I don't get along with either of them... but they don't know it. My dad is a HUGE liar - making up crazy stories about how he invented this and knows this famous person and always telling us how smart he is BLAH BLAH BLAH. And my step mother believes him. There is so much more to the story... but let's leave it at that. He arrives this afternoon at 2:30 and leaves Sunday morning. God save me.
I heard from the doctors office - usually when there is a doctor's protest for insurance - it takes longer to hear back. More like 2 - 3 weeks. So. There is a slim chance I'll find out in time and will be able to start lupron on the 20th... but I'm not getting my hopes up.