Monday, May 21, 2012

Why blog?

When I started blogging, it was over 8 years ago, and it was a different blog. It was a blog about knitting. Knitting was my 'thing'. I knit all my socks, sweaters, mittens, EVERYTHING. Any time I was sitting still, I was knitting. I always had knitting in my bag in case I got stuck somewhere, and I made a lot of my very best friends through knitting. I was reading knitting blogs and thought - what a great way to keep track of my projects. And that is why I started blogging - for a journal of my knitting projects.

Then I started to have fertility issues. I started reading IF blogs. And then I started my own, mostly to vent about my anger with the whole situation. Then it became more, much more. I made more wonderful friends here. You supported me in my ups and downs. You cheered me on in my pregnancies. You welcomed Cam with a big vitrual hug. You talked me through breast feeding issues, you freaked out with me when I found out I was pregnant again. And then when we found out about the twins.... jesus did I need you all.

And Nora. What would I have done without my blog friends then?

Now, like I've been saying, life is good. Damn good. Sure, I still have my moments (I was sobbing in church on Sunday when they played a song that was played at Nora's Memorial service). But I feel like this blog is me telling cute stories and posting pictures of my gang. And I've been feeling like the blog has maybe gotten lame. Then I circle back to why I started blogging to begin with. As a journal. About once a month, I find myself paging through old entries. Seeing Cam as a little baby. Looking at my HUGE belly when I was pregnant with the twins. Reading about my excitement when I found out Cam had a heartbeat... or when I found out the twins were girls. I need this blog. I'm sorry if it's getting boring now - but personally, I'm glad that my life is a little boring. It's perfect.

Oh, and I'm still knitting. Whenever I'm sitting still. But that isn't as much today as it was 8 years ago. And I love that.


Deborah said...

I don't know if I ever told you, but your blog was the first one I found. I didn't even know people were out there, blogging about their infertility. When I first had to go see an RE, I googled her name to get reviews and stuff. You'd written a post asking for recommendations (I think) and her name showed up in the comments. I got hooked on your blog and one day, I took my laptop to a coffeeshop on my lunch break and read all your archives. I still had no idea other people were writing blogs like this - I thought it was just you. Finally I figured out that all those people who were commenting on your blog had their OWN blogs, and I clicked through to them and found more bloggers that way. And the rest is history.

So thank you. No matter how mundane your blog gets, I'm not going to stop reading (and I agree that sometimes, a boring life is a goal rather than a problem).

BrandiH said...

I'm glad your life is "boring" I love reading about it and seeing the kids grow up and hearing about the wonderful things you do with them.

HereWeGoAJen said...

I always think your blog is interesting. ;)

~Shari said...

Oh, boy am I glad you are not closing up shop! Shew! I seriously had tears welling up in my eyes (I am not so sure why I have become all emo here in my old age) as i was reading your post.

I know I do not comment much as I am a very big lurker, but since I stepped outta the shadow for a brief moment can I just ask if you have a photo of that 50ish dress you had made? I am not sure what occasion it was for, a wedding perhaps? In my mind it was red and white with polka dots. If you know what I am talking about and you have a photo would you post it for this lurker?

I love your boring blog! I'm glad you are hanging around. Big Fat HUGS form Indiana.

Janet said...

Your blog is not boring...It's real! You are a down to earth, good Momma! That's why I follow because you do keep it real.

Valerie said...

I love your blog you are not boring at all.

Lauren said...

I think you have a great blog voice and I love reading it.