Man, has this week been crazy. Aaron is obviously a mess, so I've been trying to keep him somewhat calm, while continuing to work, and take care of a houseful of guests AND myself. I'm not sure if working was smart - because I've been somewhat useless - but my boss is on vacation, and specifically asked me if I would be working this week (even after he heard what I was dealing with). On Monday, when we talked, I didn't realize just how hard this would all be - so I didn't think it would be a big deal.
It kind of is.
I've learned a lot this week - some of it things that I wish I never had to learn. But others - like when someone dies or is sick - I know we all bring food. I've done it myself, but just because it is what I was taught to do. Turns out - that was almost the biggest help ever. Maybe it's because I'm 8 months pregnant, but the energy involved in feeding 5 people (I had my MIL, BIL, Aaron's best friend and Aaron and I here at one point) is huge. Shopping, cooking, cleaning up... having someone just drop stuff off - what a life saver. And the other things? Like friends forcing me to go with them fabric shopping, or to a pedicure or even this weekend, I'm off for the day to NY Sheep and Wool - great distractions.
Sitting in the house feeling bad for my FIL or Aaron pretty much just makes me cry - and thinking about the impact that this is all having on Aaron and his family breaks my heart. It would be so easy to just sit here in wallow in it, but again - lessons learned from all the IF shit - life goes on. You can sit and stew and get upset and rage at the world that life isn't fair.... or deal. Sure - we are still raging against the world, and yeah. Having your father have a massive stroke at 61 IS unfair. But we'll make it through. We know we will.
Obviously I wish we weren't dealing with it NOW. But you don't get to pick the timing of these things. And we have an awesome support network. So we'll make it.