Sunday, December 9, 2007

Fuck.

So. I've been spotting red since Tuesday. Tonight, I went to the bathroom, and a swear, a clot the size of my thumbnail came out. I freaked out and showed Aaron (I'm sure he is loving this). He says it's normal for all we know - considering I'm on the progesterone and everything. I hate this. I want Weds to be here NOW.

I was thinking I should call the IVF fellow on call - but everytime I've mentioned my spotting to the nurse - she says it's normal - and I know plenty of you out there that have had it and are fine. And another part of me would just like to wait until Weds in case it's bad news too.

Fuck.

9 comments:

mamacate said...

I know. It sucks SO SO SO bad to have gone through all this and then not be able to relax and to live in fear of going to the bathroom and to imagine constantly that it's all slipping away...I know. I know there are no guarantees, and there are all kinds of stories, but remember that if you're not going to get a mop after your bathroom visits, you're not bleeding anywhere near as hard as I was, and so YOU KNOW SOMEONE, personally, who was worse off with bleeding and who had a great outcome. Just keep breathing. If one day at a time is too much, then one minute. Sometimes, it's one second at a time. Sending strength.

Meghan said...

I'll be thinking of you the next few days. Any chance you can get that u/s pushed up to tomorrow?

Geohde said...

Hon, you'd be reasonable to move your u/s up.

That's a bit more spotting than ideal, it's been going on for a while and clots = worrying. I'd scan you with that story, expecially if you were having pain/cramps.

Look after yourself,

xx

J

Jennifer said...

Don't worry yourself too much - try to relax (although, I know how hard it is). If you wanted to get in sooner than Wednesday for that U/S, I'm sure the clot and continued spotting will get you an earlier appt. Maybe calling your clinic tomorrow would be a good idea.

I'm hoping and praying that little bean of yours is doing great and growing perfectly!

amysue said...

I agree with the advice to go in earlier if it will help. On the other hand, the stress just doesn't go away forever. It would be great, but the stupid shit we've all been through means we never feel 100% ok about relaxing.

I hope it's just more spotting and all is well. Try and stay sane and just breathe when you can.

Morrisa said...

I agree with everyone else's advice. I would try to move the u/s up. I will be thinking about you.

Mary Ellen and Steve said...

It sucks, I know. I passes a huge clot at 7 weeks, and at 8 the bleeding went away completely, so it doesn't necessarily mean anything. I say if it will help most definitely request an earlier scan. Good luck and know that I am thinking of you.

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Baby Deux! said...

I would be telling them you are coming in for a u/s today. (Sorry I am late reading this.) Be on the safe side of things...

BIG HUGS!