Friday, February 27, 2009

Totally fine

So. This is the picture that daycare sent me yesterday:

Needless to say, Hulk likes daycare.

And I have to admit, I like working. I was nervous that while I was out -they would discover that they didn't really need me - my boss didn't get a temp for my job while I was gone. His theory was that everyone would take on 10% of my job, and it would all work out. More than one person said that it was more like 40% extra work. Ha! Definitely makes me feel good.

We got home last night, Aaron and I took the dogs and Hulk for a walk. Aaron fed him his bottle while I made dinner and our lunches for the next day. He passed out in his swing while Aaron and I ate dinner... and slept there for almost 2 hours. We woke him up for a bath and a bottle, and he slept for 9 hours!

I was so nervous for this whole thing, and now that it's finally happening, I know it will be totally fine. I got up with Hulk this morning, gave him his bottle and we snuggled and played in bed for about 45 minutes. He played on the bed while I got ready - and then I dropped him off - so far, seems like a doable routine.

I guess the best way to explain it is that when I'm home with him, I'm always on edge. Sure - he sleeps, but I always have one ear listening for him. When he is awake, I feel like I need to be right with him, playing or 'engaging' him. And you are always trying to schedule the day around when he needs a bottle or whatever. Add into the mix two hyper active boxers. When Hulk would sleep and I would try to get stuff done, they would be on my heels and tripping me up. When Hulk would be crying - they would be wrestling and running around the house. By the end of the day, I would just be totally DONE. Baby-tending is really hard work! Yesterday, I slayed all the dragons at the office, picked up Hulk, and had a really nice evening with him (even got to take the dogs for that little walk!). I'm thinking that working/day care is going to make me a better mom.

Thanks for all the nice words yesterday - it helped me get through the day.

12 comments:

bethkyle said...

I totally agree with the 'better mom' philosophy for me too. I went back to work this week, and it has helped me to focus on her when I am with her.

Malloryn said...

That's a great picture of Hulk! I'm so happy to hear that it went well. It sounds like a good routine. It's really helpful to read about this because while we're not yet parents (waiting for a match), my plan is to return to work as well and most of the baby books I've read make me feel terribly guilty about it :P

Jen said...

What a smile! It is so great that they sent you that picture. I'm sure it helped brighten up the day.

I think I've become more relaxed now that I'm working again. I just don't have the time that I used to, so things have to slide a bit. It is doable though...and I think you'll be fine :)

littleangelkisses said...

I'm glad you had such a good day and that Hulk likes Daycare! I feel I'm a better mom because I work too.

ICLW

Jen said...

Good! And let me say again that it looks like you have found an amazing daycare. :)

Beautiful Mess said...

Aww that picture is ADORABLE! I'm so glad you feel better about daycare and work. Good for you! Have a GREAT Friday!

Chelle said...

I'm so glad that things went so smoothly yesterday. I thought about you and sent well wishes your way. Your post gives me hope that maybe it won't be too hard when it is time for me to head back to work. The thought almost brings me to tears right now. I hope today goes as well for you as yesterday. :)

hitherandyarn said...

Oh, good, Cece. It sounds like you have an awesome day care: I know you took great care picking it out.

It helps to have a place that you know that you know what you're doing, too! Babes keep changing the rules on you....

My situation was a little different from yours: it was hard to go back to work in some ways, but I had a very fussy high-maintenance first baby, and I went back at 6 weeks, and my husband stayed home with her, so I guiltily admit it was kind of a relief to spend part of the day at that point with people that I could TALK to and that I could resolve their problems! (Crying peaks at 6 weeks....) My work is such a huge part of my life, too. It was harder the second time for me, with an easy baby and 8 weeks off, and leaving two of them.

But, any way, I'm glad the anticipation was worse than the reality. It's just another adjustment: a lot less huge than a C-section and motherhood itself, eh?

K @ ourboxofrain said...

I'm so glad to hear it went well and that Hulk is liking day care. I'm also really happy to hear that things went well for you back at work. And hooray for quality time in the evening!

KandiB said...

This is the second blogger I've read that feels like working allows them more "quality" time with their baby. That's good news! I'm so worried about going back to work after the baby is born. I feel guilty and she's not even born yet! We have two Boston Terriers, and I'm worried about them + baby, too. There's just so much! Thanks for the sneak peak at your life and helping me feel like its all going to be okay. ICLW

emily said...

what a sweet happy face!!

Christy said...

Welcome back to work! I swear, one of my favorite things is getting email pictures during the day from Andrew's babysitter. I'm glad you get the same royal treatment!