The past few years have been, to put it lightly, hectic. I've mentioned this before, but someone once told me that you should think of your time/energy as a pie. If you spend more time on one thing, you just take it away from another. And that is totally true. A lot of my time and energy always goes to work The rest of the time? It changes - but it's been constant the past years. Dealing with infertility, ectopic pregnancy, miscarriage, a pregnancy, a newborn, a TWIN pregnancy, losing a baby AND a having newborn, family drama, needing a new well.... blah blah blah.
Now I survived all this, of course - but many things fell by the wayside. Things very low on my radar - like gardening, clean closets, my wardrobe. Nothing life threatening, but I would see it and think, I really need to get on top of that. And be annoyed that I couldn't find the time or energy to actually do it.. But just recently, I've found space in my life to deal with these types of things. In the past few weeks, I've managed to organize my closet and get a start on getting new clothes to fill the voids that came from throwing away clothes that don't fit or have HOLES (seriously. WTF was I keeping them?) or things I just never wear. I've weeded and set up my gardens to at least have mulch and be weed free. I even manged to set up a eye appointment (I've been feeling eye strain by the end of the workday) and that was this morning. I do need glasses (it was pretty obvious) so I'll have those next week.
It's not HUGE things, but little things that I'm getting taken care of and it's making me feel like I'm more in control of my life. I'm getting my shit together. And it feels good.