A few day ago, Baby Step nominated me for the Flame of Fortitude award:
You are receiving this honor because you have embodied perseverance in the face of difficulty and shared the journey of your experiences with others proving that a single voice can both be a light of support and a source or humor for those in the midst of their struggle. You are acknowledged here today for allowing others to share in your personal story and providing camaraderie through the power of your words.
I'm honored, of course. But like many others have said - I didn't do this by choice. I just do it. Aaron and I are meant to be parents. If we have to go through a little bit of hell to get there? So be it. And love popping in on everyone's blogs... seeing how they are doing, getting updates on their most recent treatments, being excited for our recent rash of BFPs (Serenity, Baby Duex, Mary Ellen) and following up with my buddies going through cycles right now (Baby Step, Geohde). I also know that I love the support you guys give to me. My friends out in the real world? It's an interesting mix of those who haven't even talked to me since my egg retrieval (which honestly, WTF?), others who have checked in to let me know that they are thinking of me, and then those that I call my cheerleaders. The one that are praying for me, and rooting for twins, and figuring out when my due date will be.... an interesting mix, to say the least.
All you here in blogland? I love it that you laugh at my desire to take before and after pictures of certain body parts. I love it that you totally understand the desire to do a pregnancy test when it just doesn't make any rational sense to do so. And, that you've all been here. In this shitty two week wait - so you are popping in - leaving comments to cheer me up.. and it works! I can only hope that I have been able to do the same for all of you.
Oh. And I handed over all my pee sticks to Aaron so I would stop being tempted. That isn't saying I don't have a $20 bill burning a hole in my pocket....